this will not be my downfall. i will soar, up high.
this will not tire me out. i will run it down.
this will not break me down. i will fight it back.

you shall not scare me. i will make you fear.
you shall not bully me. i will make you pay.

we are a team. we are one.
we will not fall. we hold on tight.
we will laugh. we will shout.
we will try. we will push.

intensity. composure.
agressive. calm.
relaxed. fast.
now. forever.


for NYPUltimate. for God's glory.
this is not the end. this is just a beginning.

because with you, i am((((((((((:

we have each other's interests at heart.
doing only what is logically right for one another.
but do you know i rather spend time talking to you,
knowing your joy, your pain,
emo-ing with you even.
i just don't want you to go through it alone.
but yes, i gotta understand,
your life, your choice.
what you choose to say, i will listen.
what you choose to keep it inside, i respect it.



I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be





i'm just a pain in the ass who bothers too much.

i simply need to trust.

trust my coach.
trust my team.
trust myself.
trust God.
for victory is His, and the devil's not gonna just take me down this way with negative thoughts and low self confidence.
i can. i will. i may not have the thinking, but i'm up for this. physically. emotionally. mentally.
i'm strong, and therefore I WILL BE.
NO MORE TEARS.

maybe i'm not that mentally strong after all...

sometimes it's better for me to keep my mouth shut.

too close?
or are we still so far apart?
are you suffocating already?
should i back it off, and shy away...

i screw things up.

what the hell. i gave up on looking for photos. i dislike using words to express myself. yet, my world don't deserve to be colourful.

today was pure moody. pure bad.

i gotta know my limits. your limits. period.

like a useless good-for-nothing. ask me to do anything, and i would. if it makes you happy.

but i can do nothing. at all. can't change your life. can't lighten your burden.

can't make you smile. can't make you smile. can't make you smile.

God, I don't get it too. Why put her through so much? Pruning? Or is that torture? Please see her through everything... Even as she doesn't know You, give her the joy that comes from You. A surprisingly enjoyable feeling. Take her pain away and give her comfort. 'cause You know how dear she is to me. Please don't do this to her...

you're my sunshine, my only sunshine.
you make me happy, when skies are grey.
you never know dear, how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.

and even when you choose to be the rain, i'll be your sunshine:D