getting ready for a change. procrastination has set in long time ago.

God has forgiven me time and time again. too many a times I've taken it for granted. reminders suddenly flashed in my mind minutes ago. Krist, get ready for baptism.



O Lord, keep me safe in your arms. I fear the future that is uncertain. I need to throw away thoughts and distraction in my life. Help me, let me embrace this singlehood. Embrace every bit that You have given to me. Because You, my Lord, is my Father, Heavenly King. I've not said this in a long long time, but yes, I Love You Lord:):)

a bit of bouldering...




a bit of rock climbing....



gave me a strained ankle and an injured lower back. stupid falls.

as it was, spelt out long ago.
yet i overlooked it, and betrayed the friendship.
all i wanted, is to be friends.
isn't that what i'm asking for, all along, written sweet and clear in the corner?

brother, are you still there?





krist is upset that she cannot load pictures onto her blog posts:(:(

all i wanted was to be friends.
yet i screwed the hell up.
staying clear of the danger zone.
can i ever look at you the same?
would you ever look at me the same?
these words i could never say to you.
no, not "i love you".
forgive me.
maybe all i wanted,
was that physical touch that will put my heart at ease.
that will tell me that someone, out there, somewhere,
cares for me.
as a friend. a brother. a sister.
for you're the only one who understands.
when can i ever clear that fog in my heart,
come right out of my shell,
and say hi to you.
when will i see you face again.
when can i ever look you in the eye again.
not turning away in tears,
but being thankful for you.
we all pray the same thing,
"God, save this friend of mine."
as much as you know what you're doing
is the good sake of mine,
i wish i could know what's going through your mind.



when will i see the sun again...

stupidity.

foolishness.

out of my mind.

what have i done?

taking 5 steps back. backing away from reality. into isolation.




I have made You too small in my eyes
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have believed in a lie
That You are unable to help me.
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
Oh Lord, be magnified
Oh Lord, be magnified

Be magnified, Oh Lord
You are highly exalted
And there is nothing You can't do
Oh Lord, my eyes are on You
Be magnified,
Oh Lord, be magnified
Oh Lord, be magnified

I have leaned on a wisdom of men
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show yourself strong
And in my eyes and in my song
Oh Lord be magnified
Oh Lord, be magnified