looks like I'm only significant in God's eyes.

This week had been a crazy week so far...

I cut my hair on monday. After keeping it for many many months (about 8months already??), I decided to do away with the boring thing. Plus, a change in hair colour. Purple and mahogany. The colour was okay. I mean, I loved the purple. But the hairstyle... Sigh. COMMON. Not something that I'd want. I spot my mum's hairstyle. Boring bob. And I told the hairstylist to cut whatever he wants. No guts-.- And I have no courage to tell him that I don't like it too. Oh well, I shall tahan for one month and go cut again. But thanks to Jo for paying the hairdo as a birthday present for me:):)


Tuesday was a day out man. I cycled to Serangoon, believe it or not. Down Mandai Road, to Sembawang Rd, then Upp Thomson. Met Jia Ji on the way, who continued to lead me down to Serangoon. Half way through, met with heavy downpour:/ By the time we got back to his place to get the windbreaker, we were totally drenched. Road was slippery, and I lost control of my... MATEY!!!(Okay, I just thought of the name for my mountain bike, thus it shall be this=D) Langa-ed into Jia Ji and caused him to fall:/ SO GUILTY!!! Luckily he only suffered one abrasion on the toe. But still very guilty. Promise you a treat to buffet man!!!:):) Passed Xin Ru his memory card, got back my Chivas (present from him), and made my own way back to Clementi sports hall. Tough way back, and I actually went along the grasspatches along PIE, leading from CJC down to SJI=X oh well, I made it back to Clementi anyway. By then, my knees are burnt out already. Totally. Met Keith, Shankar, Gabriel and Constance for dinner at Cafe Cartel(BP). Went to DFAC with them, and then walked back home...



Yesterday, Autofocus had a game with T-Net Bt Merah. Put up a really good fight. We won by a small margin of 2points. I was watergirl the whole match. There were 13 of us present yesterday, so coach decided to put me out of the game. I felt super lousy. Like for the first time in all the sports that I've played, I felt that I wasn't needed at all.
"Krist, who do you think you are? So what if you ever played for Combined Schools? You're insignificant, do you realise that? Stop thinking that you're place high up there, 'cause you're not. All you had was speed and stamina, but look at you now!!! Fat and unfit, haven't ran in months. What do you have to fight others now?!?! You lack of experiences and skills. Wake up your idea, girl!!!"


Why do I have to pin all that I have on something that doesn't see my need? Why have I chosen to pin my hopes on temporal things? Is it a lesson from God? God is the only person that will give me my sense of security, my sense of belonging. Have I forgotten that? He's the only faithful God who will not let go of me. Thank you, dear Lord, for all that you have done for us. For 2000 over years ago, on this very day, You're captured, and tomorrow You'll be crucified for our sins. We're sorry, Lord, and we thank You for Your grace and mercy...