the real thing is here. papers after papers. pracs after pracs.
no more fooling. no more jokes.
no more playtime, no more fun.
it's study study study.
that's my priority now. get it into my head.
*stress-o-meter has been upgraded to measure greater intensity 'cause the old one spoilt*

everyday with you is a happy day.


love you, jie:)

i gotta put a stop to all these.

training camp is just over.
more expectations. more running. more catching. more layouts.
more stress. more muscle aches. more disappointment.
more friends. more laughter. more bonding.
more hardship. more pain. more spirit.

the battle has just begun.

even though throughout the camp, i didn't literally feel God's presence or feel the Holy Spirit moved in my heart, God has truly shown me once again, that He is always by my side. again and again, as I worried, God has proven that He continues to bless the Commonwealth ministry. Weather was provided again and again, and even as I got anxious, things continued to fall in place. I picked up so much things from camp, from the children at tanglin halt.

faith. faith in God. child-like faith in God.

14th June 2009. When little Blackberry was born.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!:)))))

today, wasn't much a very good day. had my very first competitive ultimate frisbee game.

stats was empty. nothing. contribution was zero. nothing. i was nothing. that's how it was.

happy. pissed. flared up. you emo. i emo. that's how you can affect me.

but think about it again... my priorities are downside up. you shouldn't affect me. i shouldn't be interferring too much into your emotions. i can't spend so much time talking to you on msn. especially if i want you to be saved. i should be talking to God more about you, about the good of you, the not-so-good of you; the you i know, the you i don't know. my life is to be God-centered, not jie-centered. priorities. all messed up.

God, I pray for this half-a-kinship and this friendship between the two of us to continue to grow. As we continue to know each other more, about our similarities and differences, bring us through the laughters and joy, as well as rain and storms. I pray that, eventually, we'll really become true sisters, sisters in Christ. Thank you my dear Lord. Amen.

i don't understand you well enough yet.
i'm still making you upset and angry.
but i don't care. i'll just keep trying.
i'll keep doing the things i do.
i want to know you, like to the bottom of your heart.
because you are special to me.
你是一个我确保开心的人:)

total burnt out. i'm suffocating.

you really don't know how much happiness you can bring me with your small little gesture:))))