no matter how many times i need to retell the story, i will.

SO... i was 2 buses late this morning. boarded my bus only at 0615. got to the bus stop and SJI. saw natasha(toucher) still at the bus stop, so i brightened up a bit, thinking that 154 must have been late, so maybe i still have the chance to bump into my cute bus EYE CANDY. and YES!!! i saw him!!! followed by "NO~!~!" and tons of disappointment filling up my heart. i saw him standing far away from the bus stop, SMOKING!!! T_T somehow i was so depressed, i felt as if i was dumped(lol... sorry for feeling this way xD) . so i purposely tried to look at him as he alighted the bus, giving him all sorts of "disappointed looks". and strangely, my first reaction on the bus was to pray for him. and i actually prayed that some fellow Christians in his camp can influence him, you know, and maybe someday he will be redeemed.

you know the mixed feeling that i'm having? the HAPPY-SAD feeling?? ugh.. HATE THIS!!!